Hopeless, is something I use to breath, it engulfed every part of my life. If your feeling hopeless, hold on, there are many who have walked that road , and some of us still do, and even I have to watch out I dont end up on that road again. When u lose hope, that is when depression will come in like a thief and swallow u up, this is why when i start feeling that emotion, Im only to aqainted with, I try and get out of my self, start helping someone, I have had some pretty horrible, things happen in my life, but there is always, always someone that has it worse, unless I just decide I want to sit and get ring about the but, from sitting on the pity pot, now please do not take me wrong, Im about as compassiant and empathetic as they come... But I also know there have been times when I just sat there feeling sorry for myself, and didn't do anything to change it. Hopelessness, is depression's buddy, along with self hated, and worthlessnes, it's like they run in packs like a group of wolves. When I went thru this, rejection ruled my life, you know, that horrible feeling, that no body likes you, and why would they. I know when one of these emotions, starts to move in on me, I have to fight it with all I am. and pray to God, to please help. Now they are bad days mostly, or they are just bad moments, instead of months or even years. but I have learned, when I start losing my hope, it can turn in to a down hill spirial, very quickly, into all of those all too familar thoughts like- " I don't matter" anyway", " it dosnt matter", " this is it"," this is my life", and the biggest thought of all, " nothing will ever change", I can get on a real voyage with my thoughts, that will take me to the bottom of a very dark and gloomy sea, and me not k knowing how to swim, and with out a life jacket, you say dang, you sure paint a awflul picture. Well the topic, is "feeling hopeless". Feeling hopeless is not a pretty picture. Maybe some who is looking thru these posts, that have had everything going them, most of their life, you know the nice parents, the nice parents with money, the nice parents with money that gave them everything, from toddler on up thru graduate college. Maybe thats, why some don't offer help, they think all of this is made up, I'm hoping I can paint a picture that they can, look at and go, I never and any idea, people actually really felt that bad...... but we know, don't we those on here who have been desperate, for food, job, transpertaion, money to pay the bills, those of who need need medical treatment, and have absoluting no way to get it. We all know this is real.. We are not writing on here and humbling our selves, because its fun, or we thought, when I get older , Im going to be in debt, or Im going to need surgery, and have no way to pay for it, or when I get older, I'm going out on the street corner and beg for money. The thing about hopeless, the one good thing is you do not have to stay stuck, but it takes, knowing there is just one person, is aware you are hurting, or for a moment trusting in a God perhaps you have been mad at for yours. It does take a effort of some kind on you part, move on and not feel that insidious feeling.
I've had said more then once since finding this site, a few days back, this is a gift from God, that is my own belief. Because here you will find that one person, who believes you are of value, who will take time out of there day, to respond to your pain, either because they have walked thru it, or because they just have good hearts, and want to help there fellow human beings, we truly care, or I do, and I'm sure from what I've heard on here that there are others, care too
In this fast moving age where we you find people with a cell phone in one hand and your land line in the other, we have forgotten, somehow, to stop and smell the roses, or to notice the hurting people we pass on the street. We have become part of the landscape, how sad for us, that we have so excited, over, things like, what all does your cell phone do, instead realizing that not have everyone even has a cell phone, heck some people dont have any kind of phone, or even a home let alone a phone. Its no wonder there is a whole group of people that are feeling hopeless, and I would say that the numbers of people, that are set apart, grows everyday. While the other side of the coin, people just keep getting more and more, the best health food , the best cup of coffee. Its all about out doing your neighbor, what ever happen to "love your neighbor", what ever happen to brotherly love period? I know it still alive in some hearts, because I've found it on this site. I guess I better shut up. I'm so tired, I was up at 4am writing responding to a post today, and I'm very detailed in explain things.
Be good to yourself, kick "that hopeless feeling in the b-hind. and say no, I choose to to fight, and to see who I can help today. it may not chane your immediate need, whether it be finances, or needing a car, or a job, or me getting my 6 implants and special dentures I need. But I can almost guaratee you, if you come on here and you start looking thru these posts, while you are waiting for your miracle, you can become somebody elses, just by noticing they exist and responding back to them....
Thank you so much for putting up with my lenghty posts... God bless you in all, and God I pray against hopeless that is attacting so many, I say You are greater God, so bring these people peace that surpasses understanding, and renew there hope, first in themselves, that they have value, then give them the desire to reach out with a word, or many words. and God I also pray if any one reads this, that has the means to help, some of us that are struggling with a car, and they have one that just sits, put it on their heart to use wisdom, then bless someone with it. If they have a pantry full of food, put it on their heart to send a care a box non perishables out there, and if we should be so blessed, that drs, and dentist, and oral surgeons, lawyers, anyone in the professional field would read this, that God instead of snickering, and making fun, of us and saying go get a job, when they know nothing about us, that God, they would want to reach out and start, giving of their time and services, I dont mean that they be foolish and help every single person, because there will always be those few that would take advantage, but why should those of us who are suffering and in need, of medical help, and dental help, yes the kind of help that usually only the very rich or the famous get, and most of the time, maybe not all of the time its about vanity, not because they are really sick. again I'm not saying they are all that way, but I would say they majority. God, please, please, start sending people like what I just mentioned to this site. and then tug on their hearts.. I also pray that any scammers, would just start feeling sick to their stomachs litearlly every time they think about going on a web site, and espially this one, to offer help that is fake that will cause hopelessness, and also, the ones that would use this site, for a free ride, and ruin it for those that really are in need, and don't know where to turn... I thank you ahead of time, for hearing this prayer... Amen